Vortex of My Soul

It pulled me down throughout my days
Until sleep became blackholes & endless nightmares
The radiance of my soul had already left my side
To find peace never found on my drenched pillows.

And I walk through the spaces left behind
Hoping that if I breathe deep enough
Splattered enough blood across the floor
I would fill the emptiness with anything but sorrow.

Instead I gather the downpours of my heart
Droplets, puddles, rivers & lakes
Until I became an ocean of shattered dreams
Scattered, lost, dissolved & broken.

My surfaces are perfectly shaded in blue
Beautifully lit up by the unmasked sun
While deep down I hide traces of warships
And bones magnificently torn apart by my tides.

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I am an ocean of forgotten treasures & stories untold
I am the flood of hatred at your unwanting door
I am a place that should not be felt for too long
Because I am a love so deep it leaves a trail of vortices to his grave.

Delicate Death

Drink me down
Deprive me of my privacy
Dress me in your silk
Dare set free the animal inside
Delegate your hands to undiscovered areas
Drown your ravenous appetite
Drag me through the hot coals
Draw lines into my skin
Delve further into my trenches
Dethrone my jealousy
Discipline my flesh with a flaming rod
Direct my spine to bend
Define my boundaries
Distance me from my freedom

Delight in my terror..


Destroy me.

The Drowning Garden of Discipline

In this moment, I am both your comfort & destroyer
Layer by layer, I stripped you of your sin
Sunlight hiding from such sickening hands
Darkness rising with its beckoning grin.

Death .. come closer
Watch her squirm
Hold back your sickle
First, she will learn.

Come now .. do not think it to be torture
It is punishment carefully measured
In bloodshed, anger, jealousy, hatred
For the foreign flesh she pleasured.

Her grave will be deep & close to my oceans
As you reach for her, she will drown in water & soil
Death, be not discouraged by my disgusting vengeance
Such travesty of love makes my blood boil.


Now. I am royally six feet taller
A rotting corpse now dissolving under my feet
Bones fed to the beasts soon to perish along with it
Vomiting my maggot-filled promises of inevitable defeat.

Wondrous War

With our fists raised
We are at war
We collide with passion
We dance on bloodied soil
Words reduced to instrumental screams
Wisdom silenced in our enmity
Woven together, flesh in flesh
Wild spirits chained to bed pillars
Wandering hands in the absence of light
Waves of tension slowly tamed
Winsome hearts, clashing ribcages
Warm bodies, salivating fangs
Wicked schemes brought to shame
Worldly matters forgotten behind doors

We are the definition of madness..


Watch him tear me apart.

The Eternal Rest

I cradled you when all we had was eachother
Calmed your nightmares on pillows soaked in distress
I rocked your angels to sleep kicking & screaming
While I plucked their feathers & every memory to repress.

I sang a lullaby while digesting your clotting pain
You were too gentle, too delicate to heal
I prepared my armor, my weapons, my shield
So that for now, in order to fight, anger will be all that you feel.

I became stronger each night you slipped further away
Your angels now flightless prisoners to my demonic disguise
I shut their mouths & struck their hearts
With repeated memories of his final goodbyes.

I stripped you of your sunshine
Dissolved your blissful memories in acid
I burned the clothes stained with his scent
Sweet music in the background replaced with a shadowy ballad.

All these years, while you slept
Yes, I tore your skin away
Wore it, tainted it, had it touched
Who was he to own you, I would say.

Had I known your intricate memories
Searched deep enough for that which he found incredible
Why he loved such a quiet & broken soul
I would find his return inevitable.

Awaken, flightless angel of mine
Once I have released my last breath
I pray you forgive me for all I have taken
Cradle me .. rock me to my death.

The Awakening

You are most beautiful in all your sorrow
Cleansed by the rain in your soul
Raw delicacy searching for a new hiding place
Shadows drawn back to reveal the heart he stole.

Show me the brokenness of your heart
The reason for each tear that befalls your cheeks
Pull back the curtains as I peer through the window
Let him find the quiet girl for whom he seeks.

He has torn through your fortified ribcage
Claws searching for music she once played
The calmness of her Winterborn embrace
And memories imbibed in the skin you flayed.

Your death will begin with the one put to sleep
Whispers of my slumber will crawl through your bones
Insanity will rip apart your acidic barbarism
Your shame brought down with a thousand stones.

The skies will darken & isolate you from sight
The world you thought to be yours will disintegrate
And though you may think anger will help you fight
You can not fight the flow of that which is fate.


Alas .. how beautiful you are in all your suffering
Cleansed by the blood now returning to me
Raw delicacy finding comfort in an old home
Shadows drawn back to reveal the missing key.

Since then and even now
I am gentle & from sleep I am shaken
Cast the memories of his absence aside
Release your last breath & allow me to waken.